For Matt...

It has been 2 years since the passing of my good friend and brother Matt. I awoke this morning to a text on my phone reminding me of this day, a day I will never forget as long as I live. Although I feel lucky to have spent so much time with him. Matt is in my every thought, and movement I make. Everything I do is for him and that will never change. I'm not here to rain on anyones parade or be the downer for everyones day. I am simply just reminding everyone to be careful, embrace the love of your friends and family, and never take anyone you love for granted. Matt was one of a kind. A kid who overcame odds that you and I could never see past. Matt also lived in alot of pain and fear. But that pain and fear is no more. I still KNOW FOR A FACT that he is jamming with us out at the house on Lake Jackson saying; "That's not good enough, do it over." And I guess we all can be a little selfish in this matter. I am still reminded of a time when we declared that our daughters would be lesbians when they grew older and would be girlfriends (which of course in our minds was bound to happen). I remember the spooning incident at the bunker. I remember going to PANFUCKINGTERA on April 1st 2001. I remember when we jammed in the shed outside the house on Lake Jackson so loud the fucking SWAT team showed up to tell us we were "incredibly loud!" And my last memory of you was us doing a rendition of "Nothing else matters" and changing the words to "Nothing else splatters." Of course we all want him to be here right now, having cocktails, blasting Slayer at 4 in the morning. But on this day 2 years ago, Matt did what he wanted. And that is that. I miss him. We ALL miss you. And I can only thank you for being in my life as long as you were. I feel blessed just having had the chance to know you brother. Take care-


Do what thou wilt shall be the whole of the law.
Love is the law, love under will.