A post for the masses...

Hello friends. I know it has been a very long time since I have posted ANYTHING at all here and since I have some free time (17 days of free time to be exact) I figured I would do a little of that here and now.

First of all I know some of you that do read this have left comments for me to reach you. Whether it has to do with the case of Jason Getsy, my upcoming musical projects, or maybe you just wrote me off a long time ago and now you just want to catch up (I'm kidding of course) for old times sake. And while I am not really at great liberty to just hand out my phone number on the internet I will gladly provide my personal email address (one that I check everyday) and it is: Jasonrdonnelly@yahoo.com .

I do not really frequent this site all that much considering I have my own website (www.pureblackmisanthropy.com) where you will find more frequent updates, news, etc. And while I really don't update the website all that much (even though I pay 15 dollars a month for it!) you will start to see more updates as the record I am working on becomes more of a tangible public media. You will find demos, complete tracks, and videos on there as well.

Another thing I would like to touch on for just a moment and I will leave you to surf the web at your will. This past July 3 marked the 4th anniversary of our good friend Matt's death. For the past 4 years I have always posted something in the memory of my best friend and band mate Matthew David Glover. If anyone was looking to find anything I had written or said about him and found nothing well your eyes were not deceiving you. Instead of mourning the loss of my friend this year I decided to celebrate his life. Remember the good times we shared, and tried desperately not to focus on the loss of such a great human being. Things have been said about him since his passing. Some good, some bad. And all I can say is that in life it's easy to kick a man when he is down. It's even easier when he is dead. The year previous Matt and I were accused of rape?!?! Well you know who you are. And you know what you said. And you (the friendless) are a fucking coward. And I will leave it at that.

Some say that the pain seems to lessen as the days, months, and years go by. I have not found that to be true. In some ways yes. I don't have the same dreams every night. And I don't water up in the eyes as his name is brought up in conversation all the time anymore either. However when I record a song, when there are good times to be had I catch myself looking to my left (or my right) to see if my right (or left) hand man to see if he is there still laughing with me at something so fucking ridiculous it would take a video camera and an hours worth of stupid footage to explain it all. I am not going to say "Oh he is here with us in spirit" etc... If you feel that way you are entitled to. And if that gets you through the tough times so be it. The unfortunate fact is that all that knew him have to wake up everyday knowing he is no longer a phone call away. I just hope that when he did cross over that he finally found some peace. He was a very tortured soul. But he made life a hell of a lot more interesting, and a HELL of a lot more enjoyable more often then not. Thanks for reading.

Jason

With all due respect...

I have nothing but respect for those who lay down their lives to protect ANY part of this great country of ours. They are true heros. However there are a FEW corrupt cops, politicians, etc that abuse the power bestowed upon them. Now I can only take the information here at face value and TRUST that the NDN has provided all the information it is allowed to release. EVERYONE deserves their day in court. Cop, Politician, civilian, etc. Corruption is everywhere people. This is not the first and this most certainly WILL NOT BE THE LAST!
I truly value the United States constitution. And love the fact that we live in a country where we do have civil rights. It took me a long time to respect authority and understand the laws of the land. I was a VERY misguided youth. I spent time in institutions etc. But there was a point in which I had to grow up and be a man. I'm NOT saying that these kids are STILL f-ups or anything of the sort. I do NOT know them. However the whole thing does sound strange, and deserves further research. I'm SICK AND TIRED of OUR HARD EARNED TAX DOLLARS paying the salaries of corrupt cops, politicians, banks, etc, and watch them (everyday mind you) walk away with a slap on the wrist. While a pot dealer or common user (I do NOT ADVOCATE marijuana use by the way)is treated like a "murderer." All this while "doctors" are prescribing large dosages of prescription drugs spreading the plague further and further, and this country plunges further and further into debt due to an unnecessary in Iraq, and on top of that bailing out large financial institutions, while the fat cats and corporate "big wigs" laugh it off with a cocktail somewhere in the Caribbean! I'm tired of it! Yet people like this keep their job even though the old "where there is smoke there is fire" trick proves there is an INFERNO corruption burning in our back yards friends and neighbors.OPEN YOUR EYES!What happened to this great country of ours? Are there that many complacent people working within our OWN LOCAL JUSTICE SYSTEM?!?! Everyone is presumed innocent until proven guilty in a court of law. Hell they told you that on Dragnet!All I am really saying (among the hundreds of other things I have listed in my manifesto)is investigate further. Those who carry guns and are not stable folk are DANGEROUS!!!! Does anyone here know, or remember a guy by the name of Nathan Gale? If you don't know who he is (or you're just curious) google the name. Gale was a diagnosed and DISHONORABLY DISCHARGED EX MARINE that took the lives of 5 people at the Allrosa Villa night club including the life of Darrell "Dimebag" Abbott. If you don't know who he is (I'm sorry ahem) Dime was one of the greatest guitarists, musicians, and human beings on the face of the planet, senselessly killed by a former Marine with severe mental issues.I am not saying Mr. Roysden is another Nathan Gale. But who knows a man better than his woman? Think about it people. And never stop talking. Complacency equals mediocrity, and a world subdued by power. NOT what our founding fathers would have wanted. Jefferson is on my side.I'm not saying flip cops the bird finger every time one passes by. Because that guy or gal might just be the man or woman that saves your life, or saves your child's life.I look forward to maybe meeting you someday. Stay safe, be cool, and let's try to keep people coming back to our community so it can thrive in prosperity. Not go into the proverbial pot.

Thanks. Take care.
J

Pathetic.

Usually when I am writing something like this with the ever so clever title "pathetic" I am usually refering to an old band mate, someone that has sued me, or more than likely someone I thought was a "friend" at one point but proved to eventually burn me.

No. Not today. This "brilliant" title refers to me. Yes the one and only.

It is no secret to my friends and family that I have been hooked on various substances,countless times, gotten sober, with various relapses. Believe me this is not really something I want to air publicly, OR have anyone else read. But I would be lying to say that because this is a "public blog" and No one should EVER have ANY trouble reading this what so ever. The truth is that it is more like an S.O.S..Maybe someone somewhere will red this and go "What the fuck is WRONG with this asshole?"

The truth is I have not accomplished ANYTHING with my life. I'm weak, a pathetic individual lower than the lowest you have EVER met in your life.

Currently it is 5:48. I am on a computer that I cannot afford to rent, in an apartment I can no longer afford. And also have some very, very, VERY fucking serious SERIOUS issue I have to deal with.

Dope sickness is not fun people. This is unlike any fucking nightmare you have ever faced in your entire lives. I am in pain. Serving time in a personal hell that I brought upon myself. The things that were interesting have become enemy.

Doing close to about 500 mg a DAY of A VERY SERIOUS opiate can ring any man to his knees. My mind EXTREMELY vulnerable. Barely able to type this out. Most people going through this require SERIOUS medical attention.

Sweating through multiple blankets. Nervousness, hot, cold, hot, cold. Masturbation pop off one nut in about 2 minutes flat. Pathetic. Rambling, crying UNCONTROLLABLE CRYING OOH GOD WHEN WILL TTHIS END?!!!???

Waiting until dawn to get more smokes. Watching videos of clean and strong people who have influenced me.

Embarrassed, ashamed, can't make a complete sentence without crying like a retarded child. Vomit. Smoke more. Ginger Ale. So much pain. Xanax. Out of commission. Will report more as I can...

Her heart's a blood stained egg. 1200hrs

I have taken a few weeks off from recording. Which is not exactly true. I'll explain:

Things have been a little hectic at the office here. And while I am reluctant to get into any personal details I will just tell you this; This is probably one of the most serious things I have had to face head on. But I refused to put my tail between my legs and run off like a scared little boy. I like to think that every challenge that has come my way I have faced with confidence and integrity (now there is a word I rarely use).

I have someone in my life I care for tremendously. She has stood by me and I stand by her.

I am by myself right now. The first time in a while really. I am thinking clearly and I feel good for the most part.

That is all I can go into. I'll post more later.

Jason R. Donnelly

Quick post to check in and then off to bed... 0500hrs

Good morning to all. I have to make this quick because the prospect of sleep is really appealing to me at this hour. Big busy day ahead.

Had a very good day today. Mom came into town and it was a pleasure to see her. Amanda, my mother, my mother's friend Sheila, and I all went out for dinner as well.

I have been listening to the sequence for the new record (out April 20th) and I am quite proud of the work that has been done for it. This had always been my dream to handle everything from the playing to the ALL of the production. It is truly a dream come true. One of the things I tried to focus on was the sound of the guitars. It has been one hell of a journey, and it will most certainly be a bitter-sweet ending. I am really looking forward to the next adventure, but sad to see this come to an end all at the same time. I am currently looking for other musicians to play a handful of dates with this projects. As those become available they will be posted on the official site:
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Which reminds me the pre-order sale has already started for the new record you can find that at the Siflatic Store. I have released a few "album teasers" for the public in general to listen to. However I have been reluctant to upload an entire song because of personal reasons.

I can say this though: THIS RECORD IS FUCKING BEAUTIFUL! I have put out a lot of music in the last few years and I can honestly say this is some of my favorite shit EVER!

The next project on the agenda is a project called Charlie Christ. This is a project Amanda and I started last year and we are expecting an October release date of an EP's worth of material AT LEAST. Which (funny enough) was the initial plan for PBM! but 4 songs turned into 6, and then 7, plus 3 demo tracks! You (the buyer) are definitely getting your money's worth. No bullshit! All killer, NO FILLER!

One last thing. I was supposed to be on the new Immure Recess album (The Dark Frontline) however I haven't received any tracks to lay down as of yet. I know there have been technical difficulties on McBride's end so hopefully my tracks on that album should see the light of day. I am still looking forward to working on the album. Let's hope that these issues get worked out soon.

Anyway that's about it on our end here at Siflatic headquarters, and Room 36 Studio. I believe February 23 we are dropping the first single from the record. Look for it, jam it out, and prepare for total destruction! Until then keep listening to Black Sabbath.

Hail Satan,
Jason R. Donnelly

In times of uncertainty the possibility, and most importantly the availability of suicide becomes most important.

Tuesday 12/22/2009 2100hrs
Well as you may or may not know (all 2 of you that read this, and those that hate me and what to use this against me) I am recording a new album. I had said many times that I would record a new album of material but only under a few stipulations. the first stipulation was that I would have to do it ALL myself. The recording, drums, bass, guitars, vocals, etc. The second would be that I wanted to quit drinking and a lot of the drugs I was pumping into my system. SO I could do it with a clear head. As far back as I could remember (since I started recording my own music I was using at least alcohol to "enhance" my vocal or any musical abilities. Now it doesn't take someone with an IQ over 15 to figure out that is bullshit. I wanted to have a clear head. I wanted to make an album that represents a part of my life. The hostility, the depression. I wanted an all out war. I wanted people to listen to it and experience every emotion possible. I wanted suicide. I wanted payback for all the things that had been done to me.

Will this record make you want to commit suicide? My honest hope is that yes. Do I want people to commit acts of violence because of this record? Yes. The record will have you running a vast array of emotions if you choose to liten to it carefully. I wanted it to be as pure as I could get it. Some will hate it. Some will love it. Most of those that choose to hate it could never do it themselves. Why? Well for some it's an inability to play several instruments. For some it's hard for them to step outside the herd ways of comfort and conformity. The record doesn't sound like much of anything going on in today's music. Don't get me wrong I am not saying this the next "A Blaze in the Northern Sky" by ANY means. Fuck if I could do ALL of the record analog I would. BELIEVE ME!

I went from being gun ho about doing this INSANELY intense record for a while to just wanting to do a joke record. Not like Daffy Val Yinkleyankle or something like that, but something not meant to be serious at all. Something to cut my teeth as a recording engineer. Before recording what I have so far for this I had only recorded a handful of songs to get started. All of which weren't ANYTHING to write home about. And in a way I was really down on myself for it. The first Charlie Christ stuff (performance wise) was ok. And then the Pure Black Misanthropy stuff was started. So so would be generous to call it at the time. My main concern was just getting really pure, raw, almost chainsaw sounding guitar sounds. Utilizing volume on the amp and the preamp on the interface. Finding that perfect place before the track goes into the red. And realizing you also had EQ that would boost volume and effects ALSO have levels in which you had to deal with. Keeping all that in mind I had to find the perfect place and settings to make sure I had not a "perfectly polished" sounding album (I wanted to keep it as rw and dirty as possible) but a consistent sounding album, so that way when it came to mastering it would be far less of a headache. Because believe me that last fucking thing in the world I need right now at this point in my fucking life is a god damn headache!

The recording process for this record became less and less of a joke, and more (I hate to say this for fear of sounding cliche and pretentious) THERAPEUTIC. But it was also east to loose that consistency. I didn't realize that indeed what I was doing was really just pre-production. I thought that the songs I had in my head were it. I was fundamentalist in my ways. I started using different drum sounds, and the whole thing when I took a step back sounded sloppy and REALLY unprofessional. Now, when making a record like this (as I have said before) I wanted to keep a really raw "fuck you" punk edge to it. And this is where philosophically some run into a double edged sword. But I knew what I had to do. It was only a matter of when, or if I had the fucking balls to admit to myself that what I had were just demos for this record, and light the fire under my ass to do it ALL OVER AGIAN.

Subsequently it was around this time that my computer was infected with a virus and all my files were deleted. I knew this was a sign. I knew this was also the time to light the proverbial bic lighter under my arse and get moving in a more organized fashion.

Once all the programs were reinstalled it was time to get back to work. Within 2 weeks I had most of what is recorded now. I made myself a whole new list of stipulations I would abide by and still abide by now until the release of this fucking beautiful fucking beast. The first was to actually WRITE down the preset drum sounds onto paper so we have consistent sounding drums throughout the entire album. The second was that I would absolutely NOT lay down ANY vocals unti ALL the music was finished. And last I would not upload ANY music to Myspace, facebook, et al until the album was ready for pressing and in my hand. And lastly I would only play the music I had for a handful of friends, other musicians, and associates. I also found that the less serious I took the project and less energy I exerted into the project, the more I got in return. That doesn't mean I didn't work my fucking ASS OFF on the record. It just means that if something went wrong, if a plug-in malfunctioned, anything at all, I did not stress myself out about it. I found this method very rewarding from where I sit today. And god dammit if I don't continue to do that for the rest of my recording ventures.

So that brings us to today. I am burned out, depleted, defeated, depressed, strung out, and I believe on the verge of suicide. A few weeks ago I decided to take a step back from the project and let my ears rest for a few days, weeks, however long it would take. I have made several attempts to go back into the studio and finish even just really basic things. I can't seem to even do that. I have found that my life's priorities are all out of order. I have found that I am far more fucked up than my music can even possibly describe. This is beyond image. This is beyond a cliche. This is beyond anywhere I ever wanted to be in my personal life. I have lived and slept in far too much negativity. The record will be finished. But will I do another one like this again? I don't know. I have gone to the other side. And I have come back. I have been so close to death I am nauseated just thinking of how close sometimes. Sometimes accidental, other times I had nothing but the intentions of dying. Only one thing is certain at this very moment; I will not finish this album until certain personal things are straightened out. And if they are resolved the possibility of another record from me is imminent. If they disintegrate into dust, I will most certainly follow suit, unless perhaps there is a miracle and I can pull myself from that hole than there will probably be an even more intense record than the one you are about to hear.

IT's all unpredictable. I can see a record of just nothing but classical style keyboards, and tripped out horrific oblivion. I also know there is a real "doomy" "sabbath style" project in the works as well. Either way when I am dead and gone there should be a nice collection of work left behind in the wake of my absence. And it should be noted that good, bad, or indifferent, I put more things out for society, than I took. And I just wish that a lot of people understood that for 5 fucking minutes of their pathetic and worthless lives. Maybe the world wouldn't be such a shitty place to live in.

Anyway I am through ranting about stuff no one even fucking cares about anyway. I can make one promise and one promise only. The Pure Black Misanthropy record WILL get finished. the record is almost done. It's just a matter of me getting my ass in gear and finishing it. I am not certain what will happen after that.

For those who read this; thank you for your time.

All of the hatred in the world,
Jason R. Donnelly
MMIX A.S.

god Damn... Home: 0300 hrs

What a day i had. I have been listening to Slayer for over 13 hours now. The day is winding down, and I have a very busy 2 weeks ahead of me.

Wanted to run a few things by everyone that doesn't read this.

The Pure Black Misanthropy EP should be ready by Spring 2010, or maybe sooner. Let's hope all goes well with that. That record will be the very first Siflatic publications/Records release. Now there might be a little confusion over that and I will put it in perspective here and now. A few of you (that read this) might remember the first "official" Immoral Habit album (Not For human Use 2005) having Sif 001 on the side of the CD. This is true, but not entirely. At that point Siflatic the label as whole was Nick Rogers, Zack Otton, and Myself. And when Nick left to do his own thing in Chicago, and Zack and I fell out of contact I was left to do it all by myself.

with that in mind anything that was put out up until now other people had a stake in. In some form or another. Everything that will be released from here on in, will be mine. It's harsh to say to some. However I will not re-release NFHU (2005) and a few other things due to potential legal confusion down the road. Plus there are quite a few sleeping dogs I would rather let sleep than awake one more time!

A few things I'll be putting out when the finances look better are:

1. Pure Black Misanthropy (self titled)
2. The Emaciated (last record)
3. Immoral habit (suicide for your amusement 2006)
4. Charlie Christ (debut EP)
5. The Emaciated (early demos)
6. Rivers Of Abscess (still NOT finished 6 song EP)
7. Immoral Habit (2001-2005 demos unreleased stuff various incarnations)
8. Immoral habit (final album)

As you may or may not know most of this stuff has been recorded already. Who will play on the final Habit record is undetermined as Kyle has made no attempt to contact me since August.


I will make more changes on this site as I feel the need to, as well as other sites.

If you would like to hear some of the so/so demo work for the new PBM record go to myspace.com/pureblackmisanthropy . I will add a link from this page soon.

As for me right now; my head is a fucking mess! Listening to Slayer ALL day WILL do that. I promise to start posting more stuff on here as much as I can. This site has been getting a lot of bad juju from a few irresponsible comments I made. Oh well. Hope that is over. Not a very good time.

Until next time. Thanks for reading,
Jason R. Donnelly

On Jason Getsy... R.I.P.

I need to make some adjustments. It came to my attention through a VERY good friend of mine (whom I haven't spoke to in nearly a decade thanks Ken) that some of the people that I named in this particular blog were hurt or offended by some of the things I had said. I SINCERELY apologize from the bottom of my heart. My intention was not to hurt anyone so I have decided to remove the story from this page and leave a headline like the media feels compelled to do. It has been a pleasure to reach out to many of the people I used to run with in my younger days. And I was extremely disheartened to find that something I wrote hurt them. I was simply putting out a story from the eyes of a 14 year old kid (at the time) and review the past and present as well. I most certainly look forward to catching up with a lot of you again. And as for the people who wrote in sharing their condolences, thank you to them as well. Getsy was a misunderstood kid who got caught up in the wrong group of people. I was only trying to write the things that I had seen in my youth AT THAT TIME, and bares no reflection of who you might be today, or my opinion of you today. In my mind we are ALL good, and damn fucking lucky that we ALL (with the exception of a few good people) made it out alive. I applaud your success' and your achievements as we stand today. I also hope their are no ill feelings about the content that was contained herein, and that was my reason for reducing this particular blog into a simple and convenient headline.

Let it be known I harbor no ill feelings toward ANYONE from my days in Hubbard as I consider ALL of you like an extended family to me. My intention was not to slander anyone in the blog for shock value or attention in any way shape or form. May you all continue to prosper in your lives and your families as well. My door is open anytime.

Also if anyone would like the facts of this case presented by the Trumbull County court system I invite you to check out this link http://www.sconet.state.oh.us:80/rod/docs/pdf/0/1998/1998-ohio-533.pdf This is the case presented by the state.

Sincerely,
Jason R. Donnelly


Jason Getsy inmate#330 121 was pronounced dead today at 10:29 AM for the crime of murder in the first degree. The murder of Ann Serefino, and the attempted murder of her son Charles Serefino ran through my (then) hometown of Hubbard Ohio like the the fallout of a nuclear bomb. I remember it like it was yesterday.

By the way...

Happy birthday Rex...

NOLA pictures...